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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 24.06.2025 01:59

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I waited trembling.

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She was in good health!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

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Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Why did i forgive my father ?

Why would a girl not want you to know she has a crush on you?

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

And i lived it daily.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

How do I write a character’s physical description without it feeling unnatural and clunky? I’m able to describe their hair and body relatively easily because my writing puts emphasis on small movements and fidgeting, but I can’t describe faces.

When she asked me how she looked .

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

All the time i was locked up.

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

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Ive learnt so much.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Im still living with it.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

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Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

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But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She wouldn,t have been !

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

One cannot live in the past .

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Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Non dolor et ea quia.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

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What did i know ?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Eum ipsa id ullam qui.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I don,t even have a pension.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I was seconnd youngest,

My life is so biszare .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

She found it foreign!.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

So whats the point in blame.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

But ive been too sick for many years..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

We were not on the streets..

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

As i do to all so called friends.?

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I will be 64.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I was 9 years of age.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I write beautiful poetry .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I said to her

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Put me off passion for life!!

My family never makes their pension either.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

This is soul school!.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

It was going to be , some day.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Who then, do I blame.?

And who doesn’t know suffering?

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Would this be the day?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I was scared of men, in general

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Especially a lifetime of it.

She loved him until the end.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

We all went to grammer schools

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But, we were locked up after school.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Comes on , in middle age.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I never cut or harmed myself..

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I have no regrets .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I was very sick at this time too.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

(And it was in our own minds.)

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Was to survive, this bastard.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

So, i spoilt her more .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He knew the spot.

I could never make a relationship work though!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But it wasn’t much.

She married twice! .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I think the readers, may guess!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

He was dying to do it , i knew.